is a far greater curse
than most curses
*sends love to Self*
Since my last few sessions with Grandmother, she has instructed me to be more productive with my throwings, specifically by throwing Rose Quartz energies, rather than calling the Invisibles to send the chaos back to where it originally came from (Grandmother gifted me with Rose Quartz energies during last ceremony. I am grateful <3).
I began to contemplate this, as she was explaining it to me, and I must say that these new instructions resonate a lot more, given this new shift in vibration that she has created for me.
I do not feel that my previous engagements in the Golden Ways of Combat were incorrect, given my role of a Warrior. Like any Warrior, the Universe has trained us to be quick in our destruction. My actions were very instinctive and impulsive, because of these trainings, as the intent was to ALWAYS ensure that justice was served and negativity to be immediately destroyed.
Given this new shift in vibration, thanks to Grandmother, I am choosing to do things with a lot more compassion these days, which is bringing a sense of patience, along with different lenses to view situations.
As a Warrior, my programming was to impulsively destroy all of the chaos that was inflicted in my vicinity and the vicinity of Innocent Others--- instantaneous destruction, and with full force.
You throw shit in my/our presence and a guaranteed asswhooping was coming yr way.
For the record, Ma'at and Kali are my mothers-- with that said, you should know the kind of energy I was/and am working with, and you should know that I/We were not.are not messing around, as ALL of the work that I did and will do, is in their honor.
Destroy. Destroy. Destroy.
This is the Golden Way.
A new kind of Warrior energy graces me now.
There are two Warrior paths ahead.
As my mentor and I were discussing, its a different kind of Warrior that is here today. It is not the all up in yr face with my foil/sword ready to destroy you and yr energy kind of Warrior; it's more of a: "Justice will be served, yes, but first let me and us, take some time to learn from your actions, as there is a lesson here for all of us, and then, let me explain this process to you so that you understand your consequences and you know not do this again- and then when we are finished with that, I am going to send you some love, because I know that your actions are a response of some form of emotional imbalance (ie. pain, sadness, etc) which is a direct result of a broken life line " .... kind of a Warrior.
I like this new energy.
Don't get me wrong. I will still ensure the destruction of your chaos with full force Kali energy, if deemed appropriate (especially once I go back to work); however, for the most part, I will be sitting and taking my time in dissecting people's actions, learning from them, and then sending love-- instead of*** instantly destroying FIRST and then contemplating and processing after. Please note: The latter will be utilized only as needed. There is a time and a place for that Warrior.
... and for the record, I don't do Witch wars. EVER.
The energies that come from this place of conjure with regards to Justice are FIRE.
There is no space for back and forths.
When the crooked finger is awakened, your dealing is now with the Invisibles and the Universe.
I merely summons them for assistance in Justice, and the rest is none of my business.
Words for the Wise:
What you send back to me
goes back to thee
times three Or
...whichever the Universal Court desires.
I feel that there is a very powerful Warrior swing that occurs when approaching situations with a sword of Love;
oftentimes, the sting is a lot stronger. It allows for one to be hit with a genuine energy that places them in a position that awakens internal processing-- given, of course, that they are not sociopaths, in which case, full force Kali energy needs to be utilized (along with Love), as this programming is a lot harder to break through.
Personal reflection of one's actions in the presence of Love instigates powerful remorse, which, as the quote indicates, can be a far greater "curse" than any other, as it tempts the hand of the actual person, versus the hand of the justice provider.
LOVE does the twisting, and the twisting is felt by the violator. This action promotes deep awareness of the Self and reduces the chances of the violator performing the negative action(s) again-- thanks to the evocation of guilt, regret, sadness, etc.
In other words, Love presents hurtful situations to the Heart on a platter, which makes it difficult to refuse.
On the other hand, I feel, if wrath is thrown, sometimes individuals will not process it as it needs to be processed, as it is this form of fire energy that just shocks and burns the system, which oftentimes, places individuals in a "victim" role, as a result, and the whole act of Justice itself is not fully understood or processed by the individual-- it just goes right over their head. Individuals don't see: "Oh shit, this came back to me because of my actions of XYZ," rather, they view the situation such as: "Why does this have to happen to me?!" The mentality here is that of a VICTIM, which makes sense, when you dissect it to the core, as the initial motivating factor for their negative behaviors were exactly that: VICTIMhood; therefore, the trigger that often gets pulled when wrath is thrown back at them will be: "Woe is me," versus, "Damn I fucked up and I shouldn't have done that to X person because now look at what is happening to me."
I don't want to say that this ALWAYS occurs, but from what I have observed, and the way that the masses are programmed-- this is typically the case.
... which is why I think its SUPER important to throw LOVE when individuals are harming us or others, as it shifts the receiver's vibration/perspective, and allows for pathways to open so that they can reflect on their actions and reduce the possibility of having their actions re-occur. In addition, it reduces the justice provider from being "hit" back with slight consequences for tempting the hand of fate / manipulating another's reality, if you are directing the energy back at a specific person, which you don't ever want to do, for this reason; however, people do it anyways, as oftentimes, it is worth the hit. In addition, it allows for the Justice provider to address the perspective with compassion, rather than anger, which smoothens out the process, due to a lack of reflective energy from the provider.
The less anger that is added to the equation-- the better the results for everyone.
Anyhow, I just wanted to share my thoughts on the reflection of Justice, in addition to processing pieces of my last sessions with Grandmother.
I feel happy with these new teachings, and I have definitely seen a shift in the way Justice has been handled while utilizing this new energy. I am going to continue processing and sharing. One thing that I definitely want to discuss though, is ego and the perceived perception of weakness with regards to this process. I will get into that at a later moment, once I continue exploring that aspect.
This concludes tonight's thought process.
Have a beautiful night.