the Universe summoned me for duty
its been a tough war i been fighting out in the streets
for the past week
I've been feeling an empty space in my heart center
the empty space feels so magnified that it hurts
I'm trying to understand
i know that this feeling is a result of the intense light work i am doing out in the community
I've been sleeping with a chunk of selenite on my heart center
after energizing it with a boulder of leumarian quartz
hoping to ease the energetic stagnation
this seems to help
but its still tense
i felt alright for a bit yesterday
until someone i was helping within the scope of my duty as a lightworker
began to yell and scream - tantrum style
defending someone who had abused her
i noticed during that experience that the pain was coming back
i quickly did energy work during the situation to protect my space
however, the energy piece of my heart was still affected
initially i did not get it
as i process this on here
i understand why:
because i gave the situation energy
transmutes into energy of caring
that is given to the situation
my heart cares
and as a result
my heart aches
it aches for all of the negative situations I see and for all the people within- including myself
being a light worker
destroyer of darkness is HARD
i have no words for the amount of heaviness the energy translates to on so many different levels
all of this is so complex
especially when you are dealing with systemic multigenerational attachments to these heavy energies
being an annihilator of that is insanely intense
It looks like I am going to have to continue falling asleep as I give myself Crystal and Reiki energy
its the only thing that helps
I am also going to do more research on this.
On the heavy heart aspect of exposure to chaos and being a Warrior within that state.
If I find anything- I will share.
In the meantime,
I wish to share a song that motivates me.
that it is a song used to describe the most advanced, super intense level of light work.
The kind of light work that gashes all darkness and illuminates grand light.
This is THEE song for all light workers that are deep within the inner reaches of, how shall I say -- Satan's ass..... doing HARDCORE, CRAZY light work for the planet.
gash dem and light dem
and all they negative vibes that them'a bring
SO MUCH FREAKING LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE AND HEALING ENERGIES TO THESE WARRIORS!!
LOVE AND RESPECT.
If you are a fellow Warrior from the Tribe of Light -- *bows* much respect my brother/sister/fellow Light Warrior.